Threw in the towel...

Well...to be honest I threw in the towel 3 weeks ago. 

I got really lazy and discouraged...I just gave up on myself. I didn't work out for 3 weeks and ate whatever I wanted (which was anything and everything). 

I know I said in my last blog that I was done taking a break but I just couldn't find the motivation or self control to workout or watch what I was eating. 

The past week has been a really long week. 

On Thursday Cooper and Peyton were playing in Cooper's room together (like they usually do when I'm trying to get some things done around the house). Well at one point Peyton came crawling out of Cooper's room, her face was bright red and she  had tears running down her face but no noise was coming out of her. I FREAKED OUT!! I grabbed her and realized she was choking on something. I worked in a daycare for 4 years, I have been CPR certified, I have had training in the Marine Corps when I was in and everything that I knew about choking and CPR went completely out of my brain. I started screaming, crying and was just trying to figure out what to do. That's when I flipped her upside down and did the "fish hook" with my finger down her throat. The first time I did this I felt something it her throat so I tried again and it just pushed further down her throat. When I pulled my finger out there was a lot of mucus and a little spot of blood. She was breathing and making noises now but she couldn't stop wheezing. Within the next 10 minutes both kids were dressed, the diaper bag was packing and we were in the car on the way to the ER. I had no idea what she swallowed so she needed to be checked out to make sure everything was alright. 

Here's how the next 24 hours went.

3:30pm: We arrived at the ER.

3:48pm: Vital signs were taken.

4:08pm: X-rays were done and waiting for results.

7:00pm: Finally got into a room and saw the doctor. Nothing showed up in the X-ray so they decided to do another X-ray of her laying on both of her sides the see if they could see a void or blockage anywhere.

7:50pm: Back in our room waiting to hear the results from the doctor.

8:34pm: Found out something was blocking air and causing a void...waiting to hear what the next step is.

9:00pm: Found out we were going to be transferred by ambulance to a children's hospital in Greenville, NC (which was 2 hours away) to have a bronchoscopy (send a camera up her nose and down into her lungs to look for any foreign objects) done. Cooper was picked up by our wonderful friends to stay with them while we focussed on Peyton.

11:58pm: Peyton and I were loaded into the ambulance and we were on our way to the next hospital. Daddy was following in the car behind us.

Peyton getting in the ambulance

2:30am: We made it to the hospital, got checked in and found out nothing would be done until doctors showed up for work in the morning since she was breathing and it was not life threatening. 

3:00am: Finally got Peyton to sleep...she was miserable since she had not eaten since 9:30pm...

3:15am: Doctors said the bronchoscopy will take place between 7 or 8.

7:36am: Still waiting to hear from a doctor about what time Peyton's procedure will be taking place. 

8:45am: Found out that the bronchoscopy wouldn't be done until early afternoon since there were no openings...almost 12 hours since Peyton had eaten so she was even more miserable now.

10:14am: THERE WAS AN OPENING!! They rushed her downstairs to complete her bronchoscopy.

Daddy and Peyton

10:51am: I held her as they hooked her up to all of the machines and pumped her "sleepy medicine" through her IV. She fell asleep. I laid her down on the bed and gave her one last kiss. I was then escorted to the waiting area. I found Aaron and we wait patiently for the nurse to come out and get us.

11:02am: The nurse came to get us! We walked into the room and my poor baby was laying there all hooked up to the machines and had an oxygen mask on. They said I could hold her as she started to wake up. She was really sleepy and fussy (which they said was normal). They showed us the pictures they took during the bronchoscopy. Something irritated her throat and it was extremely red where they took the pictures. They did not find anything foreign in her throat or lungs (which was what we were hoping for) so they said it had either passed through already or she might have coughed it up. They flushed the area to make sure no infections would start and once she woke up they took us back to our room.

Peyton after her bronchoscopy

11:47am: Peyton was allowed to FINALLY eat so I started to breastfeed her. She ate like she had never eaten before!

1:06pm: Completed the discharge paperwork.

1:31pm: Finally on our way home!

3:28pm: Arrived home!!

As you can see that 24 hours was awful. It was an emotional and very scary time for my husband and I. The only sleep we were able to get was for about 5-10 minutes every so often since the room we were in only had one recliner, a wooden chair and a crib. So when we got home we were just exhausted. During our crazy hospital stay I ate hospital food and chugged caffeinated drinks...whatever I could get to try to keep me awake and functioning. 

Since then Peyton is doing 99% better! She still wheezes every once in a while but we have a follow up appointment for her on Thursday. She is playing, crawling around, getting into everything and even standing on her own! 

Yesterday I decided that it was time to pick up the towel that I threw down and wipe the sweat off of my face with it! So while my hubby and Coop went to the gun shop, Peyton and I went for a run. I did a total of 3 miles in 41 minutes...walking and running.

My goal now is to get faster...make my time go down. I will start weighing myself again on Sunday...but I won't be doing another progress picture for a few more weeks.

ONE MORE THOUGHT

If you throw in the towel..it's never to late to pick it back up! 

Just get up and move! 

Back to losing it...

Missy

Cannot Change Yesterday...Only Today

Hey there!!

 I know..I know...it's been two longggg weeks since my last blog post and I'm sooooo sorry. I've been really busy so let me just start telling you what's been going on.

Starting with two weeks ago...I kept up with my T25 schedule and completed my workouts Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. I also walked a mile each of those days...so my week started out on track. 

Well...Thursday was the start of me not making time to workout and making excuses. I was getting the house ready for our visitors and just freaking out because my mommy was coming to town!! I just didn't feel like working out and couldn't focus on working out either!

Friday my mommy, step-dad, step-brother and two nephews came to visit us for Labor Day weekend! I honestly hate living 11 hours away from my family but it really makes me value the time that I do get to spend with them. They got to town around noon on Friday! The guys went fishing all afternoon while my mommy and the boys stayed at my house and hung out. They stayed with us at my house that night and the following day they decided they wanted to stay at the beach. So they ended up renting a "condo type thing" about an hour from my house in Atlantic Beach. Like I said before when my family is around I like to spend as much time with them as I can so the kiddos and I stayed there with them for 3 days (Saturday-Monday night). 

Saturday when we left my house for the beach...our AC unit went out so my poor hubby was at home in pain (he was having really bad back spasms) and sweating! 

Back to our time at the beach...it was honestly like a "mini vacation" which I think I really needed! Our walk to the beach took about 10 minutes and the walk to the pool took about 5 minutes. We walked everywhere and since I knew I wouldn't be working out while on "vacation" I took the long way to the beach or pool and I would take the stairs to our condo on the 3rd floor instead of using the elevator. I was sweating constantly and was carrying around Peyton (who isn't a little light baby anymore) everywhere I went. Chasing around two 3 year olds, a 1 1/2 year old and Peyton is no easy task...we all had our hands FULL!

I didn't pack a bathing suit and kinda wish I would have...but I'm still self-conscious about my body, stretch marks, cellulite...all that junk! So this is what I wore to the beach and just all around while we were there.

It was hot...and not I have some funny tan lines! I just saw this saying today and I couldn't agree with it more!

    

Well...we said our "see you laters" Monday night and headed home. When we got home our house was miserably hot! So we went out and purchased another (hubby had already bought one) window AC unit. We put one in the living room and one in the kitchen...let me just say living in these two rooms is not fun or comfortable! I have not worked out at all since we have been home from the beach...I got sick and just laid on our air mattress for two days! Then my babies got sick and are still trying to get over this dumb sickness.

My food intake has been horrible!! 

In the past two weeks I have eaten pizza, wings, chips, candy, muffins, buffalo chicken dip, pop tarts, fruit snacks...I can't think of everything but as you can see I wasn't being healthy AT ALL! I even drank a few sodas. I had some of my meals prepared but didn't bring them to the condo with us and honestly wanted a little "break" from my healthy meals. 

Today is my last "break day" and tomorrow I will be starting my healthy meals and workouts again. I did weigh myself today and there is no change from two weeks ago.

Today's weight...same as last weigh-in

I weighed myself Tuesday morning when I got home from the beach and if I remember correctly the scale said something like 227. Just goes to show that making poor food choices and not being very active really take a toll on your weight.

One More Thought...

If you are "craving" a certain food or drink why not have it!? Keep an eye on the serving size and cut it in half. If you try to stay away from the things that you really want eventually (unless you have extremely perfect self control and no cheat days) you will break down and might go overboard (like I did)!! Enjoy the yummy things in life! You deserve it every once in a while!

Losing it slowly...
Missy