Threw in the towel...

Well...to be honest I threw in the towel 3 weeks ago. 

I got really lazy and discouraged...I just gave up on myself. I didn't work out for 3 weeks and ate whatever I wanted (which was anything and everything). 

I know I said in my last blog that I was done taking a break but I just couldn't find the motivation or self control to workout or watch what I was eating. 

The past week has been a really long week. 

On Thursday Cooper and Peyton were playing in Cooper's room together (like they usually do when I'm trying to get some things done around the house). Well at one point Peyton came crawling out of Cooper's room, her face was bright red and she  had tears running down her face but no noise was coming out of her. I FREAKED OUT!! I grabbed her and realized she was choking on something. I worked in a daycare for 4 years, I have been CPR certified, I have had training in the Marine Corps when I was in and everything that I knew about choking and CPR went completely out of my brain. I started screaming, crying and was just trying to figure out what to do. That's when I flipped her upside down and did the "fish hook" with my finger down her throat. The first time I did this I felt something it her throat so I tried again and it just pushed further down her throat. When I pulled my finger out there was a lot of mucus and a little spot of blood. She was breathing and making noises now but she couldn't stop wheezing. Within the next 10 minutes both kids were dressed, the diaper bag was packing and we were in the car on the way to the ER. I had no idea what she swallowed so she needed to be checked out to make sure everything was alright. 

Here's how the next 24 hours went.

3:30pm: We arrived at the ER.

3:48pm: Vital signs were taken.

4:08pm: X-rays were done and waiting for results.

7:00pm: Finally got into a room and saw the doctor. Nothing showed up in the X-ray so they decided to do another X-ray of her laying on both of her sides the see if they could see a void or blockage anywhere.

7:50pm: Back in our room waiting to hear the results from the doctor.

8:34pm: Found out something was blocking air and causing a void...waiting to hear what the next step is.

9:00pm: Found out we were going to be transferred by ambulance to a children's hospital in Greenville, NC (which was 2 hours away) to have a bronchoscopy (send a camera up her nose and down into her lungs to look for any foreign objects) done. Cooper was picked up by our wonderful friends to stay with them while we focussed on Peyton.

11:58pm: Peyton and I were loaded into the ambulance and we were on our way to the next hospital. Daddy was following in the car behind us.

Peyton getting in the ambulance

2:30am: We made it to the hospital, got checked in and found out nothing would be done until doctors showed up for work in the morning since she was breathing and it was not life threatening. 

3:00am: Finally got Peyton to sleep...she was miserable since she had not eaten since 9:30pm...

3:15am: Doctors said the bronchoscopy will take place between 7 or 8.

7:36am: Still waiting to hear from a doctor about what time Peyton's procedure will be taking place. 

8:45am: Found out that the bronchoscopy wouldn't be done until early afternoon since there were no openings...almost 12 hours since Peyton had eaten so she was even more miserable now.

10:14am: THERE WAS AN OPENING!! They rushed her downstairs to complete her bronchoscopy.

Daddy and Peyton

10:51am: I held her as they hooked her up to all of the machines and pumped her "sleepy medicine" through her IV. She fell asleep. I laid her down on the bed and gave her one last kiss. I was then escorted to the waiting area. I found Aaron and we wait patiently for the nurse to come out and get us.

11:02am: The nurse came to get us! We walked into the room and my poor baby was laying there all hooked up to the machines and had an oxygen mask on. They said I could hold her as she started to wake up. She was really sleepy and fussy (which they said was normal). They showed us the pictures they took during the bronchoscopy. Something irritated her throat and it was extremely red where they took the pictures. They did not find anything foreign in her throat or lungs (which was what we were hoping for) so they said it had either passed through already or she might have coughed it up. They flushed the area to make sure no infections would start and once she woke up they took us back to our room.

Peyton after her bronchoscopy

11:47am: Peyton was allowed to FINALLY eat so I started to breastfeed her. She ate like she had never eaten before!

1:06pm: Completed the discharge paperwork.

1:31pm: Finally on our way home!

3:28pm: Arrived home!!

As you can see that 24 hours was awful. It was an emotional and very scary time for my husband and I. The only sleep we were able to get was for about 5-10 minutes every so often since the room we were in only had one recliner, a wooden chair and a crib. So when we got home we were just exhausted. During our crazy hospital stay I ate hospital food and chugged caffeinated drinks...whatever I could get to try to keep me awake and functioning. 

Since then Peyton is doing 99% better! She still wheezes every once in a while but we have a follow up appointment for her on Thursday. She is playing, crawling around, getting into everything and even standing on her own! 

Yesterday I decided that it was time to pick up the towel that I threw down and wipe the sweat off of my face with it! So while my hubby and Coop went to the gun shop, Peyton and I went for a run. I did a total of 3 miles in 41 minutes...walking and running.

My goal now is to get faster...make my time go down. I will start weighing myself again on Sunday...but I won't be doing another progress picture for a few more weeks.

ONE MORE THOUGHT

If you throw in the towel..it's never to late to pick it back up! 

Just get up and move! 

Back to losing it...

Missy

Cannot Change Yesterday...Only Today

Hey there!!

 I know..I know...it's been two longggg weeks since my last blog post and I'm sooooo sorry. I've been really busy so let me just start telling you what's been going on.

Starting with two weeks ago...I kept up with my T25 schedule and completed my workouts Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. I also walked a mile each of those days...so my week started out on track. 

Well...Thursday was the start of me not making time to workout and making excuses. I was getting the house ready for our visitors and just freaking out because my mommy was coming to town!! I just didn't feel like working out and couldn't focus on working out either!

Friday my mommy, step-dad, step-brother and two nephews came to visit us for Labor Day weekend! I honestly hate living 11 hours away from my family but it really makes me value the time that I do get to spend with them. They got to town around noon on Friday! The guys went fishing all afternoon while my mommy and the boys stayed at my house and hung out. They stayed with us at my house that night and the following day they decided they wanted to stay at the beach. So they ended up renting a "condo type thing" about an hour from my house in Atlantic Beach. Like I said before when my family is around I like to spend as much time with them as I can so the kiddos and I stayed there with them for 3 days (Saturday-Monday night). 

Saturday when we left my house for the beach...our AC unit went out so my poor hubby was at home in pain (he was having really bad back spasms) and sweating! 

Back to our time at the beach...it was honestly like a "mini vacation" which I think I really needed! Our walk to the beach took about 10 minutes and the walk to the pool took about 5 minutes. We walked everywhere and since I knew I wouldn't be working out while on "vacation" I took the long way to the beach or pool and I would take the stairs to our condo on the 3rd floor instead of using the elevator. I was sweating constantly and was carrying around Peyton (who isn't a little light baby anymore) everywhere I went. Chasing around two 3 year olds, a 1 1/2 year old and Peyton is no easy task...we all had our hands FULL!

I didn't pack a bathing suit and kinda wish I would have...but I'm still self-conscious about my body, stretch marks, cellulite...all that junk! So this is what I wore to the beach and just all around while we were there.

It was hot...and not I have some funny tan lines! I just saw this saying today and I couldn't agree with it more!

    

Well...we said our "see you laters" Monday night and headed home. When we got home our house was miserably hot! So we went out and purchased another (hubby had already bought one) window AC unit. We put one in the living room and one in the kitchen...let me just say living in these two rooms is not fun or comfortable! I have not worked out at all since we have been home from the beach...I got sick and just laid on our air mattress for two days! Then my babies got sick and are still trying to get over this dumb sickness.

My food intake has been horrible!! 

In the past two weeks I have eaten pizza, wings, chips, candy, muffins, buffalo chicken dip, pop tarts, fruit snacks...I can't think of everything but as you can see I wasn't being healthy AT ALL! I even drank a few sodas. I had some of my meals prepared but didn't bring them to the condo with us and honestly wanted a little "break" from my healthy meals. 

Today is my last "break day" and tomorrow I will be starting my healthy meals and workouts again. I did weigh myself today and there is no change from two weeks ago.

Today's weight...same as last weigh-in

I weighed myself Tuesday morning when I got home from the beach and if I remember correctly the scale said something like 227. Just goes to show that making poor food choices and not being very active really take a toll on your weight.

One More Thought...

If you are "craving" a certain food or drink why not have it!? Keep an eye on the serving size and cut it in half. If you try to stay away from the things that you really want eventually (unless you have extremely perfect self control and no cheat days) you will break down and might go overboard (like I did)!! Enjoy the yummy things in life! You deserve it every once in a while!

Losing it slowly...
Missy

Weigh-in #5

Another week down!! 

I pretty much kicked this week's ass! Well...kind of. 

Monday and Tuesday I completed another two days on the C25K app. 

Wednesday I was a little sore from running two days in a row so I went on a one mile walk with my hubby and kiddos. 

Thursday I did T25 (cooled off after with the ice bucket challenge) and went on a little over a mile walk with my friend Allie. 

Friday Allie and I went for another walk which was a mile and a half. Once we were finished with our walk I went on another run (C25K). 

Yesterday I didn't workout and instead I had a girls night out! We went out to a nice dinner (shared two bottles of wine) and then enjoyed a few more drinks down the road at a little brewery. I can't remember the last time I have been out on the town and I have not had more than 2 drinks since before I was pregnant with Peyton. Lets just say this morning I was paying for my night out. Mommy had a little too much to drink! Thank God I have an amazing husband (it was his idea that I have a night out without the kids)! He not only watched the kids while I went out but this morning when mommy wasn't feeling great he took care of everyone and made breakfast! 

I haven't worked out today and I'm not sure if I will be going for a walk or a run. I'm still trying to hydrate after last nights shenanigans! 

Breastfeeding update again...(for those who care) pretty sure these high intensity workouts are killing my milk supply. I was only taking fenugreek once a day and now I'm taking it twice a day. We started feeding Peyton a bottle from my stash in the freezer (which is going bye bye pretty quick) at night before bed and she seems to sleep longer. I have made it 7 months today and I truly am not ready to stop breastfeeding. My goal is a year and I am going to try everything I can to keep going! 

I have had so many people message me, text me or comment on Facebook about how I am inspiring them to get up and get moving. That is honestly why I am doing this whole blog thing. If you haven't read any of my blogs until now...I am blogging about my weight loss journey so others can see how I am accomplishing my goals. I don't want to be like everyone else who posts before and after pictures once I have lost all of the weight. I appreciate everyone who writes me telling me how great I am doing! It makes me want to work harder! The thing that I love the most is that one of my best friends have cut out soda, started eating healthier and working out also...she sent me her before pictures next to her 3 week mark pictures yesterday. Let me tell you...THERE IS A HUGE DIFFERENCE ALREADY! I am so proud of her and everyone else who is trying to make themselves better. Keep messaging me with your progress! I love hearing about it and if you need any help or advice (remember I'm not an expert or anything) let me know!

I honestly don't have much more to write about today and this blog is taking longer than it usually takes me (thanks to my kiddos) so here we go.

Last week I weighed 227.4 and today I weigh...

224.2lbs!

GO ME!! 

I lost 3.2lbs this week which is the most I have lost since my first weigh-in. Altogether I have now lost 16.4lbs! I have been doing this for 5 weeks now and I only have 54.2lbs to lose! I am seriously starting to love my body and the person I have become in the past 5 weeks. I am gaining more confidence everyday and when I look in the mirror I'm not disgusted at what I see. I walked around my house the other night in a sports bra and yoga pants...umm I haven't felt comfortable enough to do that since before my pregnancy. You would think I would feel comfortable in my own house wearing whatever I wanted but I was always to self-conscious and didn't want my husband looking at my fat or thinking "Eww look at her!".

I think I need a "prize" or some kind of "reward" when I finally get out of the 200's...any suggestions!? Let me know what you think it should be! 

ONE LAST THOUGHT

Keep up the hard work! You are not going to get to your goal weight or get the final results you want overnight. It takes time. It takes hard work and dedication. If you put in the work and change your lifestyle I can promise you...you will start to see results! Slowly but surely! Push yourself to be the best you can be!

Losing it!

Missy

Weigh-in #4/Progress Pictures

IT'S WEIGH-IN DAY!

I have officially made it to my 4 week mark and I am pretty proud with the progress I have made. I am starting to see more changes with my body and I'm gaining more confidence! My hubby even made a comment about my body changing! 

(That made me feel awesome and want even more changes!!)

So here's how this past week went.

To be completely honest (I only want to be honest and not hide anything with this blog and my readers) in the beginning of the week I was lazy and started to "fall off the wagon"...I didn't work out Sunday-Wednesday. I ate my healthy, prepped meals but I also snacked and made a lot of bad and unhealthy choices. I had cravings for sweets and I lost self control. After loading up on sugar I felt like complete crap! My body isn't used to sweets anymore and I felt like I had just poisoned my body.

On Thursday I decided it was time to get back on track. (Time to get my fat ass back into gear!) I continued on schedule with my T25 calendar. It kicked my butt and I felt every bit of the unhealthy choices that I had made the days prior.

Friday I completed T25 again...and I learned to NEVER eat fish before working out AGAIN! I felt like I was going to be sick during and after my workout. 

Saturday I was feeling super motivated! I completed T25 and another day on the C25K app (my running buddy was cheering me on in the stroller like usual)! 

Last week I weighed 229.0lbs. Today I weighed...

227.4lbs! 

I love when the number is lower than the week prior! 

In the past 4 weeks I have lost 13.2lbs. That's pretty dang good in my book! If I lose 13lbs every 4 weeks I will reach and pass my goal by January! I know that the last 15-20lbs are really hard to lose so once I get to that point I will really have to buckle down and work harder than ever!. 

I decided today that I am going to take pictures every 4 weeks (gives me something to work even harder for) and post them to show the progress that I am having. 

Here are my progress pictures!

(Don't mind my messy hair and gross face!)

I can see some changes...and I can promise you in 4 weeks there will be an even bigger change!!

This week my plan is to complete T25, C25K or go on a 1-2 mile walk everyday. I want to make sure that I am up and moving! I will be sticking to my meal plan this week and will not allow myself to cheat. I want a big change on the scale next week so I am going to work hard this week to accomplish that! 

Haha! I love this!!

ONE LAST THOUGHT

When you are on a journey to lose weight it can be really frustrating when you don't get the results that you want or were hoping for. 

DON'T GIVE UP!

It took longer than a day to put on the weight that you are trying to lose! It's going to take longer than that to take it off!! 

Losing it!

Missy

Weigh-in #3

Here we are again...
It's Sunday and that means its time to weigh-in. But first here is a little bit about what went on this week.

I have had no time to blog this past week thanks to my kiddos!! Every time I sat down to try and get one done Cooper wanted juice, Peyton needed to eat or Cooper needed help in the bathroom. (Oh the life of a stay at home mom!) I also had a cheat meal (CHIPOTLE...OH MY GOODNESS I WAS IN HEAVEN) and I feel like maybe that wasn't a good decision and couldn't stop thinking about how it was going to effect my weigh-in. On my "off" day my hubby and I took the kids on a walk around the neighborhood. When we started walking it was sunny and nice out...then all of a sudden it started pouring rain! We were soaked when we finally made it home! Dang North Carolina weather!

I completed T25 Moday, C25K Tuesday, walked a mile on Wednesday, T25 Thursday then took Friday and Saturday off. I didn't want to take both days off but we had other plans that got in the way. I'm a little disappointed in myself because I haven't been completing the weeks on time with the C25K app...but I'm hoping I can get on track and complete it 3 days a week. I really need to purchase a double jogging stroller since I have a single one and can only take one kid with me when I go running. If I did that I wouldn't have to wait for my hubby to get home from work to watch one of the kids.

Milk supply update...(for those who care) I started to take Fenugreek and try to get my supply back to where it was before I cut my calories. Well from what I can tell its working. Peyton seems to be full after nursing and she's eating for longer periods of time now. THANK GOODNESS! My goal is to breastfeed for a year and I'm almost to 7 months!!

Ok time to tell you about the weigh-in...

Last week I weighed 230.0 lbs...today I weighed...

229.0lbs...

When I saw it I tried to just remember that losing weight takes time and the harder I work the more results I will have.  

This is soooooo true!!

 At this rate I'm losing a pound (last week almost two) a week so if I do that every week I will lose 52 pounds by next year at this time! That would be awesome and I would be right around my goal weight. 

I just have to keep reminding myself that this journey I am on is NOT an easy one AT ALL! There are so many temptations whenever I leave my house (so I've been trying to stay home when it's time for me to eat one of my prepped meals) everywhere I go...the gas station, the grocery store, a friend's house and yummy restaurants. There are also many excuses I could use to just quit and give in to those temptations...but I will not quit. I want to lose weight more than I want a candy bar (Reese Cup), a soda (Diet Mountain Dew) or anything thats horrible for me!

If you are serious about losing weight...MEAL PREP! I promise you it will be so much easier to make healthy choices if everything is already prepared and ready to go when you start your day. Chasing two kids around, cleaning the house, doing the laundry, taking care of two dogs, potty training, breastfeeding and everything else I do on a daily basis really doesn't give me much time to think about myself and what I need. Meal prepping on the weekend allows me to eat healthy everyday. All I do is grab a meal and pop it in the microwave for a minute then eat while the kids are eating. 

ONE LAST THOUGHT

Slow progress is better than no progress!! Sometimes during my T25 workouts I have to follow what the chick on the side is doing (the moderate pace workout lady) and I know this is ok because I am trying my hardest. Trying my hardest and pushing myself to do the best that I can will get me to where I need to be. 

Losing it...

Missy

Weigh-in #2

So it's Sunday again...you know what that means!

WEIGH-IN DAY!!

I haven't been as excited to weigh-in today since I know this weeks workouts were not what I had planned them to be. Not only was it a bad week but the weather has not been cooperating at all.

Do you see that!? 

Rain and thunderstorms all freaking week. I guess I'll have to just suck it up and learn to love running in the rain. 

Ok ok ok...I know what you want to see so...

HERE WE GO...

Last week I weighed 231.8lbs...today I weighed...

230.0lbs.

Yeah...I wasn't happy with the number at first but then I started thinking about what the scale was really saying. 

This means:

I lost 1.8lbs. 

I have lost 10.6lbs in two weeks!

I only have 60lbs to go!!!

I AM LOSING IT!!!

I just have to keep reminding myself that its a slow process and that I am making progress!!

Meal prepping is finished for the week so now its time to enjoy my babies before their nap time! Sorry its so short today...just wanted to let you know how the weigh-in went this morning. I'll have more to write about next time.

Losing it one pound at a time...

Missy

Excuses.

Well it's just been "one of those days" all week. 

Not only did I start potty training my almost 3 year old but my 6 month old got her first tooth. 

Ughh. 

Potty training and teething in the same week...let's just say I'm tired and stressed to the max. On top of those one of my best friends moved back to Texas since her hubby just deployed so I've been super bummed about that. We had lunch together before she left and I was super proud of the choices I made. We went to Chick-fil-a (that way Coop could burn some energy on the play set) and as I was driving there my stomach started growling. I just started thinking about the food that I usually order when I go there. Usually I'll order the Chick-fil-a Nuggets (12-count) with a large order of fries, large Diet Coke and a large Cookies n Cream Milkshake. My usual meal (I just looked this up) was 1610 calories. 

HOLY SMOKES! 

No wonder I was gaining weight! I was making awful choices! The meal I chose to order the other day was grilled nuggets (8-count), a fruit cup and a water. This meal was only 190 calories...that's a HUGE difference! I knew I could order whatever I wanted and no one in the restaurant would judge me or even think about all of the calories I was shoveling into my mouth...but I would know. And I would just think about it all the time until I weighed in again...wondering if I worked hard enough to burn that meal off or if it would weigh me down on Sunday. I promise you...you can find something healthy to eat any where you go. It's all about self-control.

Ever since I started eating healthy (almost two weeks now) I have a schedule of what to eat and when. I've done amazing with sticking to it and not falling off track.

I also have a workout plan of when I will do T25 and when I will run (C25K app) but honestly I have not stuck with that the past two days. I started this week doing awesome and sticking to it but my calves didn't agree with what I was doing. But I know my problem...I haven't worked out (or ran) since before I was prego with Peyton (so it's been about a year and a half) and I just jumped right into this crazy hard workout plan when I should have started slow and eased into it. I wasnt letting my body recover. 

With that being said...I am not making excuses and I'm not giving up. 

I'm just being honest. 

I am finding my way and pushing all excuses out the door! 

I know what I want and I know what I need to do to make it happen.

ONE LAST THOUGHT

Don't let your excuses stop you from being the person you want to be. If you want to lose weight...get up and start moving. If you want to start eating healthy...make the change. What's holding you back?

 An excuse right?

Losing it...

Missy